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conditionalinstability ([personal profile] conditionalinstability) wrote2019-10-27 09:20 pm
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 Working with the other androids has been... difficult. Going from Hank, smiling and initiating physical contact and showing every indication of valuing Connor's presence, to a population of people he'd hunted down and killed and sent for disassembly, it's- 

Connor was made to be adaptable. Connor is adapting. It isn't like he hasn't created this situation, anyway. It isn't like he has the right to blame them.  

He catches himself, again, about to dial Hank's cell number. He would have had to give conscious confirmation to actually go through with it, but his programming's gotten as close to doing it as it can without Connor actually giving it the order. 

Connor can handle this. Connor is adaptable. Connor doesn't have the right to run to where he's more comfortable instead of seeing all this through.

Josh stops him just inside the door to the meeting room. North was the first to leave, as usual; Connor looks out the door and watches her leave, watches Markus's hand on her back as if she still needs it, needs someone to make sure she doesn't have Connor in her line of sight for any longer than she has to. Simon sends a twitching little smile at him and Connor's software tags the expression as nervous, uncomfortable, supports the analysis with the hunch of Simon's shoulders as he ducks out the door. Deviants seem to emote exactly like humans do and that is, in a way, convenient. It makes at least one part of socializing with them go more smoothly.

"A few of us are going out," Josh says, bringing Connor's attention back toward him. Connor's software tags his expression as watchful, attentive, tags his voice as careful and deliberate. Josh is trying hard to be polite to the deviant hunter; he always does. "Try to relax before that big meeting this evening," he goes on. "We'd love to see you there, if you have time." 

We. We'd love to see you there. Polite exaggeration, Connor decides, isn't unlikely for a personality like Josh's. Connor hasn't decided if Josh's need to make sure everyone gets along is compulsive or not, yet. It's certainly a powerful drive for him. 

"I have a meeting with a contact. If I can get a little more information before the meeting I'm sure I can turn it our way. I'll let you know what I find out." 

"I know you will," Josh says, his frown saying something else altogether. "Look, I know I'm supposed to be waiting for Markus to say this, but you need to take a break. You need to stop." 

A couple of Connor's background processes freeze for a moment. The email program he'd been using crashes; it doesn't occur to him to restart it. 

"What?"

"Your LED was yellow through most of that meeting," Josh says, his voice gentle and terrible. "We all saw it. How many other things are you doing right now? We have this under control." 

Without you, is the implication. They have it under control without Connor. "Markus said this? I need to talk to him." 

"Wait, Connor, wait-" and Josh reaches out reflexively for Connor's arm to stop his move toward the door and stops and almost, almost flinches. It's a minute movement, a split second, and Connor's software tags it: fear. Historically, he has a good reason to be afraid of grabbing Connor's forearm that way. Connor's memory provides him with those reasons. 

"Shit, I should have waited for Markus," Josh mutters, frowning and lowering his hands just far enough to hold them up, palms out, as if he thinks Connor needs to be calmed down. His voice is gentle again, deliberate, careful. "Markus has something in the works, we're not... abandoning you, or whatever it is you're thinking." 

Connor opens his mouth. There must be a glitch in his social relations software; all the options he'd normally be choosing a reply from are blank. Connor closes his mouth. Connor waits. 

Josh stares at him, his frown second by second getting deeper. "I'll just... get Markus. He can explain better than I can. Okay? I'll be right back." 

Josh escapes. Connor watches him go. Connor waits.
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-10-30 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
The hardest part is being reminded of how empty his life was. Hank got used to working and drinking, those being the two options and often together, and so he didn't care much about the fact his house was a wreck or he had nothing to go back to outside of Sumo. He's been badly functioning all this time but it became the status quo, and then it changed. Connor appeared into his life. Connor was everywhere; always pushing, always talking, always pulling Hank out of his thoughts and depression. It irritated him a lot in the start, but eventually he came to rely on it. Connor reminded him he was alive.

Now he was gone.

Not gone, gone. Hank knows he's with the androids, and he supports it absolutely. What Connor went through to free his people, it was with tacit agreement and support from his former partner. He was ready to die to help Connor still finish his mission. He may be a difficult man, but his moral center in many ways still points north. It was the right thing to do, to get those androids freed, to make up for his blind hatred and acknowledge the ways he's changed and the world should too. He shuts down any bitter commentary at the office, in which he actually appears during reasonable hours, and only occasionally drunk. Usually tipsy at most. It might seem like a small thing, but for him it's a step.

And he makes it alone because Connor has bigger things to worry about than him. He goes home to silence and he eats in silence and there's this big gap in him again. But he can't bring himself to call and admit he misses Connor, that he needs him. Hank is surprised when the captain hands over a file to him and holds onto it when Hank goes to pull it. "You'll need help on this one," Fowler says with a load of meaning in it, and Hank doesn't know what that means. He doesn't play well with others.

As soon as he opens it he understands and he closes his blood-shot eyes, rubbing them as he thinks it through. This gives him an excuse, almost like someone knew he needed one. An excuse under the guise of a mission, and if anyone cares about missions and success, it's Connor. The eagerness with which he gets up and takes the folder with him shows how the rush of excitement is already waking him up. He can't call from the office; they can't see him talk to Connor. Instead he gets into his car and stares at the phone.

You can do this. He likes missions. It's reasonable. Hank swallows and dials, resting his head back on the seat and closing his eyes, his heart thudding. Like a damn teenager calling his crush, it's pathetic, but he waits.
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-11-01 12:07 am (UTC)(link)
The wave of emotion he feels when he hears Connor's voice shocks him. It's much like getting kicked right in the stomach and he finds it a little hard to breathe at first. This is exactly why Hank wouldn't call him in the office. He's almost dizzy with relief because he didn't realize until now that he was concerned. He doesn't have Connor in his sights, he can't watch his back, and he's dealing with a whole bunch of androids who have reason to hate him. He rests his head back and flips the mirror open in his seat, making himself look right at it so he can tell himself to get a damn grip.

"I'm okay, Connor, relax." That's the first thing he has to say since he can hear the concern in Connor's tone. For one, he gets it, because Hank's been used against him in the past, and for two, it's a thrill to know Connor cares still. It's not that he expected his android to stop caring, but Hank doesn't care about himself, it's difficult for him to believe (or accept) other people can. He remembers mocking Connor's voice once, but mostly because he liked it. He's always liked it. It's young and unique and calming.

Hank looks at the file and frowns. "We have a case and, uh, it'll require an android partner. Fowler told me to call you ...." Fowler did not do that, but he implied it, and it was obviously Hank's first instinct regardless. Now he's getting nervous though, pinking lint off his clothes and rustling trash around in his car. It's a wreck and he didn't notice. "I know you're busy so if you'd rather get one of your new friends to come in, that's fine." He's trying to sound and act so casually, like he doesn't care, like he hasn't been thinking about Connor non-stop since he left.

There is a pause as he spots his flask in the front compartment and sloshes the liquor in it thoughtfully, not sipping yet. His anxiety is really calling for it though. "Not that I'd wish me on anyone you know, so if you don't want them bitching to you about my attitude, uh, you could just ... do it." That comes as close to asking as he can get.
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-11-02 05:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Hank wanted to hate Connor in the start. He could have even told himself that he did. He was harsh on the android from the moment they met, sharp and cold and angry. But he also fucking liked him, there was something about him. It only irritated him more because he had it in his head that the designed Connor that way. They made him so that he could manipulate Hank, that's what they did, right? Every time Connorr caved to him, said the right things instead of the wrong things, it upset him since it rang untrue. It's a miracle he didn't shoot the android a dozen times over from sheer paranoia.

He let his guard down eventually. He let those warm instincts take over. He saw the little moments of change in Connor and they slowly filled him with something like hope. Hank is as loyal as a dog and when he loves someone it's with his entire heart, so once they became that close, it was over for him. He was in Connor's pocket and all he could hope was that the android wasn't playing him all along. He had that fear when the other version of him turned on him, when just for a second he worried he'd been wrong all along.

He hadn't planned on hugging Connor when they reunited. He doesn't remember the last time he embraced anyone, let along in this way, but he stopped trying to fight his instincts. When he drew his partner into his arms, everything felt right. He still thinks about that more than he should. It distracts him sometimes when he lingers on the memory; the feel of Connor's body against his, the tentative way he returned the hug with his hands at Hank's back.

Hank knows he should be honest but it doesn't come easily to him. He's the one tiny step forward, two giant leaps backward kind of guy. He swallows, about to say you're the only one qualified, not because the mission requires him, but because Hank needs him. Connor gives him an open instead to meet in person, and he sags in his seat, relieved. And maybe a little excited. "It has, yeah," he says, still as casual as possible. His hand tightens around the phone.

"I'll be there. Come by whenever." He feels that it's dismissive to say it like that, so he waits a beat. Come on, Hank, give him fucking something. "Connor, it's ...." He clears his throat, rubbing at his eyes. "Good to hear your voice." There. That is something. He feels nervous about it for some reason and then hangs up.

He immediately goes to the Chicken Feed and only gets soda instead of food since his stomach's being weird for some reason. Nerves, apparently, which is ridiculous because this is a meeting between friends and former colleagues. Not a fucking date. Although the reality of dating in this file only came to him when he thought about it, and he had a moment of blind panic where he thought maybe a stranger would be better. But no. He's not any better at this shit with a stranger.

Hank's in his normal sloppy clothing; he intentionally didn't clean up so it didn't seem like he was trying too hard to impress. He did clean his car out for some reason, and well, maybe he put a comb through his hair. Maybe. And checked his beard to make sure it was clear. Maybe. He sips on his drink - he did throw a little rum in there, to take the edge off it - and tries not to look around him eagerly. He's cool. He's calm.
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-11-02 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Hank is trying his best not to pace and he is not the type of guy to look through his phone while waiting. He thinks about the case and what he's capable of, and he thinks about Connor and the state of his life. He assumes that the androids are busy and that if they allow him to take a little time, it's temporary at best. But Hank is fine with that, honestly. One case with Connor, stealing his time, will be better than none at all. Besides, he has more than enough good reasons to put by the androids on why they want this too. It relates directly to human-android relationships and so Connor's still doing both.

He doesn't know much about the androids or their leader Markus. The guy has a presence, to say the least. He's seen clips of him and he's impressive, if very unreadable. Much more together and important than a washed-up detective. He glances up when he sees Connor coming toward him and straightens immediately, pale eyes doing a quick once over.

He likes the loss of coat and tie, it makes him seem less formal. Less Cyberlife. The two buttons undone is an interesting detail but that makes him seem more casual too, so it's a good choice. Hank raises an eyebrow when Connor lifts his arms, his eyes darting to the side to note who is around. It has nothing to do with him being uncomfortable with people spotting him and an android, and everything to do with the fact Hank is very guarded about his feelings and vulnerabilities. Hugging Connor is personal and treasured and he doesn't like other people knowing that.

Still, he's going to have to get used to it, and the fact Connor clearly wants it makes his tension ease and his heart soften. Hank sets his drink down and moves forward, tugging him in for the hug he'd been expecting. Hank is a big man and all his hugs are of the bear variety. Like the last time, everything feels good and right the moment they embrace. But this is already past his comfort zone so he doesn't let it linger.

"Not hungry," he says gruffly when he pulls back, awkwardly stepping back but clapping Connor on the shoulder affectionately. That's the most he can give. "I guess it's good to see your face too." Hank smiles at him, despite himself. "How you been, kid?"
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-11-06 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
The noise surprises him, he would wonder if Connor was injured if the android could get aches and pains the way he does, and he does see that rabid blinking when he pulls back. Hank is very observant and he's currently taking in all the details and changes in his partner, and concern ripples through him. He can tell that Connor's choice of busy is precise and that doesn't answer whether or not he's alright. Maybe he's not alright. Maybe Hank should've checked in sooner instead of assuming he was better off with his own people than cleaning up after him.

"It's an adjustment, but people are whiners. We didn't have them back in the day and we don't need them now." Hank thinks that sounds harsher than he intends to, and follows it up. "Everyone's got their own lives now." It's a distinction he wouldn't have made before, and might have even said good riddance about getting androids out of all spaces, but he's done a 180 from that mindset. He didn't think it was possible for him to so drastically change on anything, but he didn't anticipate someone like Connor.

Hank lets his hand drop because touches shouldn't linger, although if they're going to actually do this mission, he might have to get used to that. And also he is starting to doubt again whether this is all a good idea. But the trade-off is seeing Connor, and more than once. "Busy is not the same thing as good, Con, don't think I missed that." He shakes his soda to free some of the ice and frowns at his friend. "Are people being dicks? Do I need to come yell at that pretty boy messiah?"

He sees Markus' face everywhere these days, on the news and around. He has the messiah/martyr act down cold, although Hank isn't so sure he believes it's genuine. But he does believe in Connor, and if Connor says it's legit, it's legit, and if he says they're being pricks, Hank won't hesitate from going in and being an asshole about it.
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-11-10 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah, I know there's a lot of shit to do, that's not what I'm asking." Hank gets on a general level that there's a lot even he hasn't thought of the androids need to figure out. Although he does have a strategic mind and he gets some of the struggles they're going to go up against. Such as assholes like him who need to get their heads knocked around before they realize they've been unfairly prejudiced. He's been worried about Connor and the rebellion. It's tense. They could get attacked at any moment by a hate group, and he knows that Connor can handle himself, but they aren't going to have easy fixes like they used to.

Oh Hank absolutely means it. He doesn't fully mean it, in the sense that he'd rather not do that knowing all the trouble it'll cause, but he is stubborn and loyal enough that if he thought Connor was being treated badly, he would stomp in there and shout at Markus no matter what consequences came from it. He was basically Sumo; a big dog prone to barking but lacking any real bite. He's protective to a fault. He might try to let that temper simmer and get Markus' number from Fowler and be a little less physically confrontational. But there's no doubt that android might be on the receiving end of a furious swear-laced rant.

He doesn't like Connor's behavior, but he also isn't going to assume that this is due to real emotions rather than programming. Hank is no genius so it may very well be that Connor's dealing with some software issues. After everything that happened, he has to adapt to a lot. "Maybe you've been doing too much. I know you're a super special android and all, kid, but everyone needs a breather sometimes. Even when you don't breathe." It's the concept that he means. Connor needs to take a break if his system is whirling like this.

He hesitates, unsure now if calling him for a mission is the right thing, but it could be that a breather from the androids would be helpful. And they're not going into a dangerous situation. It's low stakes in comparison to the future of androidkind. Hank shrugs off his concern and hands over the folder. "If you feel like doing this, the worst that'll happen is some people are being creepy fucks. Not the end of the revolution. So it's gonna be less stressful." The case is about some suspicion that an android-human dating support group could be nefarious. Could be they're legit about helping the cross-species couples deal, could be they're doing something under the table. Either way, it's not the world is ending shit.

"We'd have to pretend to be a thing." Which makes him uncomfortable. "Not so sure I can sell it with a stranger." Hank's not sure he can sell it at all even with Connor. He's been closed off from dating after Cole died and his wife left. He vaguely remembers what it's like, but he's not the warmest of people most of the time. "But Fowler gave it to me."
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-11-18 01:45 am (UTC)(link)
Hank's eyes narrow at him instead of arguing, quiet for now as he reads over the file, and his gaze is searching and a little piercing. He can't do anything if Connor is upset but won't share it with him, and otherwise he'll have to accept that he's being told the truth until proof otherwise. He hates that. He is very glad to see his friend and he isn't sorry he called him or that he's here. This really should be a laid back job in comparison to whatever else he's been doing, since it won't decide the fate of the android race or whatever.

"I don't care what your model is designed for stress-wise, Con. You deviated from your programming, so it ain't the same anymore. You've changed, which is good because a non-deviate version of you put a gun to my head. I prefer you." Meaning that Connor might not be acting the way he used to. Stress can get to him more, and there's a lot more emotions to deal with than there used to be. Hank doesn't get machines, but he does get emotion. "Maybe this'll be like a vacation. It'll be weird but that's likely to be the worst of it." That's the plan at least. Chances are he better knock on wood or it'll turn out to be a hell den or something.

He takes the folder and rubs a hand across his bearded jaw. God, that part is going to be a lot harder. "Well, it's been a long time since I was in a thing." Once his wife left him, Hank mostly shut all the doors and he did try once or twice, usually just a lonely one night stand here or there, but otherwise he wasn't looking. "It'll require being affectionate with each other, so uh, good thing we broke the hugging barrier." He really is not good at it, but he does have some experience to draw on. He isn't going to treat Connor like his wife, but he can remember when they were dating. No big deal.

"Wait, what do you mean that part of your programming? Did they put dating tips or whatever in your head too?" He can't really see it, not with Connor being designed for a particular type of action. But maybe it's something all androids had in case there were lonely people. There's always lonely people. Hank reminds himself he is not one of them, this is a job. "We already argue like an old married couple, so we've got that going for us."
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-11-24 01:45 am (UTC)(link)
Hank is the last person to doubt Connor's capabilities; he's seen them. But he cares for the Connor he saw develop over their time together, the one who helped the androids instead of hunted them. He'd rather have someone capable of caring and making mistakes than a perfect machine who feels nothing. He raises an eyebrow as Connor talks. "It's not ... really training, kid. You fabricate a romance, it's obvious. And we'll be dealing with androids who can read people." He doesn't know if they'll be looking for trouble, since this is an information assignment not an action one, but either way.

He knows what they'll read off him and he's not concerned about blowing the cover because of that. He just really doesn't want to bring too much attention to it if he can help it. Hank is better on focusing on the mission when he's got one. "I don't remember you flirting with anyone. Go ahead and give it a try." He is more amused than anything else, and he wants to see what Connor would come up with. No programming would work on him anyway, as far as he's concerned.

Hank forces himself not to step back when Connor steps forward, allowing his friend back into his space. This is all very awkward for him, but he recognizes it's what has to happen. So he reaches out to take Connor's hand, threading their fingers together. It's been a very long time since he's done that and it's such a simple gesture. It's meaningful and sweet though, or it's supposed to be, but Hank is a little gunshy on the inside. Quick to retreat, if he feels he has to or should. "Let's hope our old married shtick is enough because there's a lot more reasons for people to doubt us as a thing." Hank has low self-esteem to say the least but he feels like it's realism instead. Why would anyone in their right mind pick a middle-aged overweight drunk unless it was a set up?
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-12-08 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
Hank's expression can't seem to decide between whether he's amused or baffled, so it's a mix of both. "You mean when you were acting weird and winked at me? That's cute." He does remember feeling this exact way then, mingled in with a lot more aggression on top of it. If he thought the android was trying to flirt with him at the time, he would've been a real dick about it. Now it's funny. It's slightly distracting him from how nice it is to feel Connor's palm against his and how rare he's let anyone into his space to do anything let alone this.

He waits and raises an eyebrow in challenge as Connor apparently taps into some programming to show off. He doesn't know exactly how his mind works, but he figures it's like the whirling of his computer, only much faster and more impressive. He's intrigued to see it and it's why he doesn't pull away when Connor's body language changes. They're small but distinct and he feels it mildly working. He's pulled in, at least, caught as much in his curiosity as in anything else. He holds his gaze and his heart beat speeds up only a small amount, but it would be a discernible change for Connor. And then he says that, and Hank can't help it. He laughs.

"The body language is good but the pick up line is not." When Hank laughs and smiles, he looks slightly younger, as if the constant misery on his face relaxes for a second or two. He has a little more experience. Hank keeps them close and also maintains eye contact, the warmth that Connor manages to inspire in him in his gaze. "You want to be careful with a husky voice like that." Hank's own goes deceptively soft and intimate. "It gives a man ideas." His thumb caresses along Connor's knuckles with their hands still held. "It's called a bedroom voice for a reason." It's been awhile since the last time he flirted or acted suggestively, but rusty or not, he's trying it now.
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-12-12 12:31 am (UTC)(link)
Hank is very hard to read or at least difficult to try and figure out what will set him off. Even he doesn't know most of the time. He doesn't like feeling like he's talking to a robot or something without feelings, it makes him feel like he's mirroring nothing at all and it's frustrating. He's not a big fan of insincerity in general, and he's very good at reading it in others, even androids. He responded to Connor well when he could see something modifying in his behavior and in his emotions, when he saw glimpses of change that he didn't realize was deviance at first. The Tracis really did it. Connor's reaction to them and witnessing love on their face got through to Hank and he realized that's what he wanted for Connor, for every living thing, synthetic or human.

He'd been trying to get Connor to deviate that night, or at least to push him to see if it was possible, if there was something real within him. Hank desperately wanted to believe there was, all of a sudden, like that damned android snuck up on his feelings and suddenly he wanted to know what it would be like to see Connor emotional and authentic. If it was possible. And his partner is still very good at not making his thoughts obvious now, but Hank still can tell the difference between his Connor, this Connor, and the one he first met.

Connor had this programming, but it was the fact they were friends that had Hank laughing and warming up to him, instead of jerking away awkwardly and putting up every possible wall between them. He isn't good at this anymore but seeing it as a mission or as a game helps. It does not help that Connor is most definitely giving him bedroom eyes or that the smirk is attractive. Hank isn't so oblivious as to think he couldn't be affected by Connor's charm and looks, but he still can see the tightrope he's about to have to walk.

Hank is very drawn in despite himself. Connor's eyes flick to his lips and he feels something flip in his stomach, and he wonders if he can intellectualize a reason to kiss him, but no. This is all kinds of bad. Hank has to focus on how this is work and they have a job and he nods his head slowly.

"Much better. Lines are almost always a bad idea, not a lot of people can pull them off. Especially not with a young face like yours." Hank keeps his hand held though; the more used he is to contact the less likely he is to jump at the first sign of Connor touching him in public. They have to at least seem this comfortable. He can explain away a lot of twitchy behavior as him being private; Hank has that air about him, someone who likes privacy and doesn't love people getting into his business. It'll be hard to soften that out for the job, but it might also give him reasons to ask for help from the others to loosen up, get some questions answered by making himself deceptively vulnerable.

"No Lieutenant with these people, Con. Just Hank." That will be a habit Connor has to break. He calls Hank it most of the time, and it is a problem putting it in this context, because damned if he wouldn't love to be called that by someone as pretty as him in a different situation. "Are you sure you're alright with this? It's not really what you're made for."
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-12-16 03:08 am (UTC)(link)
It's better that they don't keep flirting because Hank'll like it too much and he hasn't had anything to drink that will make him deal with that well. It's been a long while since anyone was interested in him, that's all. And Connor has a strong presence, it's difficult not to be drawn into him. He struggled with it from the day they met and mostly failed; despite his efforts, he was like a moth to Connor's flame. Not that he'd put that into words any time soon.

"Say my name at the end of every sentence until it gets easier, that'll make it closer to second nature. It's what you do with the lieutenant anyway." It's a simple enough fix. What they are to each other now is different anyway. They're not partners and Connor's not a detective anymore, but they are friends, and this'll almost be like it used to be, only now they like each other. They were the start of a very good team there for awhile. He thinks they can be again. Something's still bugging him about Connor's behavior and he watches him carefully. The hand tightening gets his eyes narrowing.

"There isn't a who is cut out for it situation here. If you and I don't do it, I'm not going with another android, so I'll just give the case back. The chief knew I'd be asking you." Hank wouldn't make it undercover in this situation with a stranger, and cases got reassigned all the time, especially if someone wasn't right for undercover. "Alright, something is up with you, don't try to lie to me, I'm a pretty good detective myself." He lifts his other hand to place it on Connor's shoulder, this gesture meant to be reassuring and grounding. "You don't have to prove yourself to me. I trust you. Relax."
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2019-12-30 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
Connor's always an interesting struggle for him, because Hank is good at reading people, but he's been wrong about androids a lot more times than right. When Connor started to deviate he noticed, but he also wasn't entirely sure at the time, if he was simply looking for something he wanted. Especially once he realized he did want Connor to deviate, that he wanted it more than he could put into words without even knowing fully his reasons why. Now he could see emotions and reactions on his friend's face but reading them isn't the same thing as most people he knows. And despite everything he is also careful. He doesn't want to push Connor too far. He's had enough of that.

Hank listens and then makes a face. "Ah, shit, it's not ...." God, here he is reflecting on whether or not he can read Connor when Hank himself can be a damned mystery. He is a maze himself, with false trails and unspoken truths. He grimaces and shakes his head slowly. "Alright, so that was me trying to act nonchalant and casual." He owes Connor honesty now that he's being called out. Awhile ago he might have waved it away, but he really is trying, even if it's very uncomfortable for him. "I wanted to see you, and I wanted an excuse to make you come here, but I didn't want it to be obvious."

It sounds ridiculous put like that. It sounds a lot like when he was a teen trying to figure out how to talk to a girl he liked, which he is not entirely fond of the comparison, but it's similar in the approach. How to get something without acting desperate about it. Hank clears his throat and scratches his beard. "I'm not worried about your capabilities. I'm just ...." He shrugs and looks away. "Worried. About my friend." He feels way too honest and exposed at the moment and hates it.
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[personal profile] stickyourinstructions 2020-01-11 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
In the start Hank didn't really notice when Connor was clearly processing a lot of information. He eventually understood the differences with yellow, blue, and red, and there's such a thing for humans as being able to watch when someone's thinking too hard. Since Connor's basically a new person, in more ways than one, he gets that processing is happening not just with the world around them but whatever's going on in the inside too. It's frustrating, not being able to poke his way in, to understand how Connor's mind works and follow his train of thought. It's been a long time since Hank wanted to be a mind reader, but he really wishes he could be at the moment.

The tighter grip on his hand would in the past have set him off or made him jerk out of Connor's grasp, but at least they've come far enough that he barely notices or minds. Hank observes all of this and his gut is telling him something, but Connor deserves some secrets of his own. Or whatever it is, if he wants to keep it to himself, that's fine. He's an individual with his own shit going on, and Hank can't just go stomping around breaking things open because of his insatiable obsession with knowing. Which he stopped feeling passionately over the past few years, until this all started. Until Connor and the android situation put the fire back into him.

"Alright, I'll back off." He's not saying he's wrong about anything, thanks, but Hank will focus on something else. That mocking smile is both cute and irritating, and Hank frowns, glancing away from him for a moment. "If we do this, we'll have a temporary location. It's too easy to trace my place back to me." And they're not going to use the android home, obviously. "Someone'll keep an eye on Sumo." He knows a few people he'd trust to ask.

"I'm going to attempt to be more pleasant in my cover." Hank grimaces; his grumpy attitude isn't actually a new thing. His tragedy and darkness came from Cole, yeah, but he's never been a happy go lucky guy either. But his personality doesn't exactly encourage people to trust or warm up to him easily, as he doesn't trust or warm up to anyone. That will be even more difficult for him to get right than pretending to be in a relationship with Connor. "You'll have to remind me."